This is a love letter to my friends, the sun and film
When my world had collapsed two summers ago, my perception of my surroundings changed. All of a sudden I had to hold on to just anything, clinging on to every bit of texture, scents, temperatures, sounds; my mom’s garden, my dog licking her paws, water reflecting the sun; I was painfully aware that up to that point my perception of the world would go unnoticed, that my existence would have been untraceable, almost meaningless given how detached I was from my family and most of my friends who have their lives so far away from where I am. Tobias Brust
That was when I got back into film photography. I would spend all summer walking around my neighborhood trying to capture what kept me going, my personal tangible property. A year later I had to spend all summer in the hospital; my alcoholic dad fell into a coma and would only come back to life half a year later.
What felt like a bright summer at first turned out to be just as tearful and tormenting as the year before. But I kept chasing the sun and the beauty of the world at 5 in the afternoon.
The summer of 2018 is a love letter to my friends, the sun, and film; for the first time in years I feel content and I have something that keeps me going.
Tobias Brust is currently living and working in Frankfurt, Germany. Having a background in film and media studies, he makes art as an offset to his academic work. Tobias’ work is largely influenced by his working-class upbringing, his perception of the world as an introverted queer man and an appreciation of media archives and archival research.
Tobias Brust is also featured in the UNCERTAIN Magazine Issue #4 – Summer of ’18